A Flood of Grief

This is a topic that is a bit sensitive for some folks. It requires a tremendous amount of gentleness. I think it also requires some age and wisdom to fully grasp it.

This is about the grief and suffering of the dying.

We have a vocabulary about death. We say things like “at least it was a quick death,” or “at least they died in their sleep.”

In the sadness of loss, we acknowledge the mercy found in certain kinds of death. This sort of death is… better. Better than suffering.

For the one experiencing the loss of a loved one, these phrases don’t lessen the pain, but it is helpful to know that the words are true, isn’t it? It’s good to know that loved ones who die this way did not experience prolongued agony and pain before they passed.

But it doesn’t lift the grief. It is still sorrowful.

But what about those who do suffer in agony?

I won’t describe any of it, because there are those who know already know people who have died this way, and they don’t want to be reminded. We have witnessed it. We have grieved it. And we have prayed for it to be over. We have prayed for an end of the suffering. For mercy.

And when the end comes, we are left with the most troubling and turmoil-filled spirit. We prayed for the end, but then we grieved the loss. We are relieved that their suffering stopped, but we didn’t want to lose them.

This is sorrow.

In Genesis 6, prior to the flood, the text mentions the “wickedness of man.”

We’ve been taught to read this as written in the English. Humanity is completely wicked, so the Flood waters are a judgement to wipe out the earth in God’s wrath.

But that is not the whole picture.

The word here for “the wickedness” is the noun-form of the word ra’. We translate it as “wickedness” or “evil,” but the word carries the connotation of suffering. So when we read “…and that every inclination of the thoughts of the human heart was only evil all the time,” we are being told something important.

Can you see it?

III. evil, misery, distress, injury
1. evil, misery, distress
2. evil, injury, wrong
3. evil (ethical)
H7451: רַע (raʿ)

The text is not describing a humanity in defiance or disobedience to a holy God who must respond in wrath. That’s not the story. It is describing a humanity that is suffering. They are in misery. And they are dying. The curse of sin (death) has laid hold of all of them.

And when the text says “the Lord regretted that he had made human beings on the earth, and his heart was deeply troubled,” we see it clearly.

This form of “regretted” is compassionate mercy.

1. (Niphal)
1. to be sorry, be moved to pity, have compassion
2. to be sorry, rue, suffer grief, repent
3. to comfort oneself, be comforted
4. to comfort oneself, ease oneself
H5162: נָחַם (nāḥam)

And this form of “grieved” is precisely that feeling of troubling and turmoil-filled sorrow. It is the ending that you wish didn’t have to happen, but you understood that it would be worse if it didn’t.

5. (Hithpael) to feel grieved, be vexed
H6087: עָצַב (ʿāṣaḇ)

This is what our God is showing us with this story.

This stems from Adam and Eve’s eating from the tree of the knowledge of Good & Evil. This evil is the source of the suffering of humanity.

The narrative isn’t pointing to a God who is punishing us for doing the wrong thing. It is about a God grieving our suffering from it.

But God does not leave us in our suffering.

In Noah (whose name means “comfort“), we see God pointing to restoration. We see God making a new covenant and promising that this Flood will not happen again. Perhaps it’s because He will one day end all of our suffering.

Every Animal is Kept Alive

But I will establish my covenant with you, and you will enter the ark—you and your sons and your wife and your sons’ wives with you. You are to bring into the ark two of all living creatures, male and female, to keep them alive with you. Two of every kind of bird, of every kind of animal and of every kind of creature that moves along the ground will come to you to be kept alive.
Genesis 6:18-20 (NIV)

If you’ve followed my posts about the different “kinds of animals” in Gen 1-3, and how we seem to have a picture of Israel (livestock), the Gentiles (the wild animals), and the Enemies of God (the ones that creep), you may see this as prophetic and extremely hopeful.

The way it is written, this covenant appears distinct from the one that occurs after Noah gets off the boat. This one seems… redemptive.

From Adam to Noah (Visualized)

It’s interesting to see the ages of the patriarchs graphed out. If we read Genesis 5 literally, Adam lived to see Noah’s father born.

I suppose the blessing here is that during Adam’s life, he does not see any of the promised lineage below him die. Not to say that nobody died (Cain did kill Abel, after all), but nobody in this specific genealogy dies before Adam.

Maybe that’s a story of hope.

Trust after a Broken Heart

I’m not a mother, but I try to imagine the depth of hurt, ache, and the mixing of hope & hopelessness bound up in the birth of Seth.

Eve knows God will redeem the world through her children, but one is lost by murdering the other. All of her hope is destroyed.

She holds Seth.

How she must have trembled at his first cry. How she must have clung to him and pressed him close to her body, but also feared losing him, just like she lost the others.

Could she trust God with this child? She trusted him with the first two, and we know what happened.

I weep for Eve. For us.

How do we trust after we’ve been let down? How do we hope when everything we hoped for has been dashed?

The story of Eve and Seth is a story of God healing the broken hearted. It will require time. It will require God.

What’s in a Genealogy?

Genesis 4 introduces us to Genealogies: a list of names of generations. In English, they are merely names, but the Torah hides meaning inside words. Perhaps God is not giving us names to forget, but parables to understand.

What I’m going to share next is only conjecture.

This is the list: Cain, Enoch, Irad, Mehujael, Methushael, Lamech, Adah, Zillah, Jabel, Jubal, Tubal-Cain, Na’amah.

Each name is a Hebrew word that carries multiple meanings. If you translate each, you can end up with nonsense, but you can also end up with a message of hope.

If I follow the meaning as below, I get this message:

Our ACQUISITIONS and works TEACH us that we’ll WANDER and be STRUCK DOWN. But there’s hope: LIFE. If we SEEK GOD, there is STRENGTH, BEAUTY & PROTECTION, and a FLOW of MUSIC AND JOY.

CAIN’S OFFSPRING can find GRACE.

Again, this is conjecture. I have no idea if this is the intended message, or if I’m merely seeing hope everywhere in the text.

But shouldn’t we? Isn’t that the point? Shouldn’t we hear the echo of the God of Genesis 1 and Genesis 2 ringing loudly and clearly throughout the text?

Wrestling with God

In Genesis 32, we read a story of Jacob wrestling with God, refusing to let go until he receives a blessing. This is not bad. It’s a defiant and hopeful tenacity that God honors.

After God pronounces death on Adam, perhaps Adam “wrestles” with God as well, defiantly naming his wife Eve… which means “Life.”

It can Take Time

Take hope, friend. When Abram returned from his lack of faith in Egypt, he made it back to Bethel, which means “House of God.”

But he got there “in stages.” Over time. It took a while. This is how it works. And God welcomes you into His house.

And he went [a]on his journeys from the Negev as far as Bethel, to the place where his tent had been at the beginning, between Bethel and Ai…
Genesis 13:3 (NASB)

[a] The footnote says: Literally by his stages

Sad in the Beginning

Genesis 1:2 begins with a profoundly sad state of things. It shows the world, but I think that for many of us who have “deconstructed” and felt broken off from heaven, we feel like the earth that’s shown in this verse.

Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.
Genesis 1:2 (NIV)

But God is there. And the next verse is blessed hope.

Hope for the Hopeless

A story of hope makes sense only to those who first know the story of hopelessness.

“I will fix this” is a message for those who know brokenness.

Light makes sense in the context of darkness.

But this is not the same as “first, know you are a sinner.”

Genesis 1, which sets up the proper order of things, doesn’t blame the creation for its own darkness, or the land for its barrenness.

It simply acknowledges that it is. And then God fixes it: Light and Life.